it’s been I don’t know how long but I’m about to bare my soul so get ready.
things have been insanely tough lately, but what I find painful is that I’m an idiot and still have hope. I don’t know why, the love of my life has repeatedly told me he doesn’t know if he wants to be with me, but I still hope. I think hope is the one thing you can’t crush in people, I think that’s why most of us keep going.
I haven’t eaten yet today and I just don’t feel like I’m ever going to, I haven’t really left my room either. I’m making myself ill but it just feels like the only thing I can do right now, almost like a punishment for myself.
but still I have hope.